writing is #1 on the short list of how i measure the quality of my life.
when it is gone, i will be gone, too.
butterflies are such cliches, and yet every time i see one, i hold my breath and shiver, watch in awe until it disappears--and i am certain it was a message from a loved one long gone.
"Suicidal Diarrhea" is punk rock meets performance art and I'll buy a ticket to that show.
Today at 07.00, I forced myself to batch cook. Because now tomorrow me will have a "normal" morning routine of packing lunch, and between patients I will eat a nutritious lunch, and I will not spiral into simply "getting by" (at least not because of hangryness; is that a word?) Sometimes pushing has a payoff. And also, letting go of the compulsion to be productive is way harder than it might look to someone who's brain doesn't resemble a golden retriever puppy playing with a middle-age honey badger.
Hmmm, not sure I could handle that show. I’m not a big fan of scatological art. 😆
If hangryness isn’t a word it should be. Good job. If I could get myself to meal plan…someday! Someday I will. It’s true, sometimes if you can just make that extra push to do something to take care of yourself, it creates momentum.
It’s true about the compulsion to be productive…It’s not a “humble brag” when I say I can’t relax. It’s an acutual problem. I think our brains might look quite similar…
so much good here.
sometimes i write my way out of the dark;.
more often, writing allows me to SEE in the dark.
writing is #1 on the short list of how i measure the quality of my life.
when it is gone, i will be gone, too.
butterflies are such cliches, and yet every time i see one, i hold my breath and shiver, watch in awe until it disappears--and i am certain it was a message from a loved one long gone.
thanks for another thoughtful blast. good stuff.
thank you, my friend.
That’s true. A lot of the time it’s more a matter of seeing in the dark than finding my way out of it as well.
I get it. I don’t see a me without writing.
Butterflies are magical creatures. Every time I see one, it cuts through the grime of my cynicism, gives me a moment of awe.
Thanks for reading.
Inspiring - you’ll feel better if you do it. Thanks, K!
"Suicidal Diarrhea" is punk rock meets performance art and I'll buy a ticket to that show.
Today at 07.00, I forced myself to batch cook. Because now tomorrow me will have a "normal" morning routine of packing lunch, and between patients I will eat a nutritious lunch, and I will not spiral into simply "getting by" (at least not because of hangryness; is that a word?) Sometimes pushing has a payoff. And also, letting go of the compulsion to be productive is way harder than it might look to someone who's brain doesn't resemble a golden retriever puppy playing with a middle-age honey badger.
Hmmm, not sure I could handle that show. I’m not a big fan of scatological art. 😆
If hangryness isn’t a word it should be. Good job. If I could get myself to meal plan…someday! Someday I will. It’s true, sometimes if you can just make that extra push to do something to take care of yourself, it creates momentum.
It’s true about the compulsion to be productive…It’s not a “humble brag” when I say I can’t relax. It’s an acutual problem. I think our brains might look quite similar…
Thanks for reading, my friend.